by Sivasankar Venkata Krishnan (OshoVenkat)
Life is unpredictable. It gives, it takes, it uplifts, and sometimes breaks us completely. Some people keep fighting the current, trying to hold on. But I chose to let go—to flow with it. I didn’t plan it that way, but life’s own turns led me there. I’ve gone through enough storms to know that control is often an illusion. Today, I live with a sense of surrender, a sense of detachment—not out of weakness, but as a result of deep understanding.
The Early Years: Learning, Searching, Becoming
Right from the beginning, I’ve been curious about life—its purpose, its meaning. That thirst led me to study political science, sociology, philosophy, religion, journalism, and design. These weren’t just academic degrees; they were part of my search to understand why we’re here, what really matters.
Up until then, Osho’s teachings had been a foundation in my life. I had followed him from my early twenties. But this suffering pushed me beyond even that understanding. I started to question everything again. Why do good efforts fail? Why does life hurt so much? Why do people betray you when you need them most?
And slowly, painfully, one truth became clear—nothing is in our hands.
The Shift: Surrendering to the Unknown
When I finally stopped resisting, something shifted. I surrendered—not to a religion or a particular god, but to existence itself. I accepted that life has its own intelligence, its own rhythm.
This wasn’t a hopeless surrender. It was freeing. Osho always spoke of surrender—not as weakness, but as alignment with life’s flow. I didn’t just understand that anymore—I started living it. I stopped pushing. I stopped planning too much. I began to trust life more deeply than ever before.
Detachment: A Quiet Strength
That surrender led to detachment—not indifference, but a peaceful space within. I still love deeply. I love my wife, my daughter, my family—but I’ve let go of clinging. My wife has stood by me like a rock, and our bond has only grown stronger, but it’s no longer based on fear or need. My daughter, my first love, remains close to my heart—but I no longer worry about holding her close. I simply bless her journey.
Now, whether life gives me joy or sorrow, I remain steady. I don’t crave applause. I don’t fear failure. I live as a witness—engaged, but not entangled.
Today: Just Flowing with Life
These days, I live simply. I teach, I create, I walk, I observe. I don’t try to fix the future or regret the past. I just flow.
What I’ve realized is this: Life is not about control. It’s about trust.
Surrender to what comes. Detach from what goes. And flow with what remains.
This isn’t a success story in the usual sense. I haven’t conquered the world.
But I’ve conquered something more important—myself.